Friday, Sep 13 2024
My love: I am writing this just in case. For the past several days since I’ve been in Williamsburg, I’ve had a low-grade fever, which was one of the symptoms Dr. Lee said would indicate something to not let slide. When it wouldn’t go away for a few days, I went to the emergency room at the Williamsburg hospital this morning just to be sure. After a number of tests and scans they say it is an abscess, a collection of pus underneath the ileostomy reversal area. So this afternoon I will be undergoing a relatively minor surgery to drain the abscess. Even though it is relatively minor, it still will require general anesthesia and all the risks that that entails.
Because of that and because I can’t even inform you (damn him), I am writing this note just in case things do not go as expected. I didn’t want to miss the chance to tell you today at least some of the things I should tell you everyday. How you have made my life complete, and full of the love I never knew I needed. How when I am with you any difficulties I might have just don’t seem to matter.
If I don’t come home, please don’t be sad or grieve or dwell. I want you to be happy. There may be tears in my eyes as I write this, but I am happy for all the years that we spent together. I just wish we could go back and live them over and over again. Perhaps that is what my heaven will be.
My final hours will be filled with thoughts of you.